How Can I Un-love You?

It's a question that visits my thoughts once in a while. How does one un-love someone?

Every time I see you my heart flutters. It's as if we've never separated from each other, like I forgot how you have wounded my fluttering heart badly before. But then it's a different situation now. I have someone by my side and you are there on your own world, wandering and discovering more of yourself.

Though I really wonder if you feel the same. Do the slight brushes on my arm, the kind gestures you make, or the messages you give mean more than what they should mean?

I am afraid. I am afraid that if I do something, everything will turn out sour. What we have now, the friendship that is, took a lot of time before it was fixed. I guess I value our friendship more than anything that could ever happen. Friends stay longer than boyfriends/girlfriends as my mind would say. I guess it works well for both of us if I just love you from afar, to watch you go your own way, see you grow from afar.

How can I un-love you? I really don't think there's an answer for that. I'll just copy what Piolo said in his movie and just continue to love you in a different way now. Let's just drink to that.

The Time To Fly

It has been very memorable each time I am with you. The places we go too, the movies we watched, the songs we listened together, the conversations we had, the favors you made for me, your sweetest kisses, your tightest hugs, the fights we had, the tears you shed, your warmest smile, everything was very memorable. Thank you.

Thank you for all the things you have shared and lessons I have learned along the way. You have really been an important part of my life. Thank you for loving me, thank you for teaching me how to love. Now I know that I am capable of loving another person the way I love you. Thank you for everything.

You know who you are, the person I made that place with. It's time for me to move on with my life and fly with my own wings and explore the vastness of this world we're living. I have to continue the journey I have been in, but this time, alone. Don't you worry since you will always have a special place in my heart, that I promise. You know I never break promises so you can trust me on that. I love you but I have to go now. See you when I see you.

Goodbye. :)

Come And Get Me

Sometimes things are happening to us and feel like we are in such a big mess. But when we look at others we realize that they are in a much bigger mess than we are. It's not just you who is in a really troublesome situation ok? Everybody else is.

I guess things like this just really happen to test our durability and strenghten us. All we have to do is pick ourselves up and brush off the debris. What matters is that we stand amidst it all. Your pace of moving forward maybe slow but that doesn't really matter. It's not a race after all. As long as you're moving then you are getting a bit closer to your goal. :)

It has really been one hell of a year. Lots of ups and downs. People left and people came. 2013, I must say, you have been one heck of a ride. Bring it on 2014! Come and get me.

Clouds and Crowds

Just this afternoon, I arrived at school thirty minutes early for class. I really like the feeling of walking in an alley not minding if you will bump into another person just because the walkway is just too narrow. I felt free.

I climbed my way to the third storey of the building and there were also not much people whom I can pass along the way. I headed to the restroom to see if my hair was still neat after that windy jeepney ride. There were not much people inside so I took time gussying myself up. I went out and I walked until I reached the room where my class is supposed to be but when I glanced into the classroom I realized that I'm still early since the previous class was still there, with few of their classmates reporting. So I looked around to entertain my eyes for the time being.

I looked up into the sky and saw that it was blue, giving a large contrast to the very hot environment I am in. But what amazed me the most was the formation of cumulus clouds up there in that seemingly peaceful sky. I really love cumulus clouds since they are so fluffy, they look like cotton that is so soft to touch. They look tender and warm since they are lumped next to each other. I wonder if heaven would be like this. It would be really nice I thought to myself.

Suddenly, a few of my classmates arrived and I said hi. We were then chatting for a bit when a loud ringing sound echoes. Classes have now ended. The alley was then crowded with students who have just come out of their classrooms. It started to feel narrow and as I shifted my sight to the staircase, the situation was still the same. It was like there was a flood of people.

I moved my eyes back to the sky I was watching earlier and I couldn't see the awesome sight I've witnessed just moments ago. The lumped cumulus clouds were now moving far apart from each other like ships drifting away from shore. I looked back to the classroom and saw my classmates heading towards inside despite the number of people they bump along the way. I did the same and found my way in. When I was in my seat I took a deep breath and said to myself: "And it's true, nothing really stays the same."

Those Frequent Visits

A thought just came into my mind: "Hmmmm... What if I took a different course than what I have now? I should have graduated and probably be earning thousands as my salary. I should have just taken 'INSERT 4-YEAR COURSE OR MUCH EASIER COURSE THAN THE CURRENT HERE' then. *SAD FACE*" This certain idea visits my uneasy mind once in a while, making it much more uneasy. This and many more ideas. Well, there are plenty more. But I won't share the others, to keep myself mysterious. Hahahaha.

So how do I comfort myself? It feels weird doing the comforting part for your own self. But then again, you yourself would never let you down, am I not right? Well, what I say to myself is that everything may seem difficult as of the moment, but then they all happen for a reason. If I will not have guts to face every challenge along the way, then there would be no glory for me at the end. I believe all of my hardwork (hmmm.. well, the hardwork I am able to offer) will be paid off in the near/distant future, whichever adjective suits well. Hehehe...

If you have failed in any of your undertakings, don't fret. It means that there must be something lacking in what you do, maybe you just have to work harder. And if nothing happens, work even harder. In the end, if all else fails, there is another road in store for you. Yeah, believe me, there really is. I have been there. So you just keep moving forward! No matter how fast or slow your pace is, what truly matters is that you're not in the same place you were before. You are moving to keep yourself closer to your goal. :)

I believe in happy endings, are you the same? When you fall or fail, never think of it as the end of the world. Maybe you just have not yet reached the happy ending to your tale. :P

We are all on a roller coaster journey called life. We experience the UPS and the DOWNS. It's quite boring when we experience the same old thing, eh? Word of advice: Enjoy the ride while you're still at it.

And here I am writing in this blog instead of continuing my journey on my path to greatness, well, I'm just taking a break and I missed writing here in my special escape, now back to unfinished business. :)