If this stupid heart could just follow what the head's been saying

It is such a pain when your head and your heart have their own minds to follow. Really such a pain, believe me. Your heart says go but your head says no. What the f*ck a pain.

But then, there comes a time when the heart becomes exhausted and tired of waiting. "I was just here waiting for you but then you didn't come back," the heart says. "You see, that person does not really feel the same ways as you do, you are just wasting your time and youth," the head says. "I dunno, I dunno anymore," the heart says.

I don't really know as well, sometimes, you realize that you just really love someone but then he or she does not feel the same back. Such a pain to know. But then you just gotta pick yourself up, stand on your own feet and be your own hero. You see, they can live without you, all you have to do is to make it mutual, live without them.

When you don't know where to look, you might just be looking at the wrong direction.

Contentment - a word one can utter easily but is really hard to find. In this world where you could dream of everything you want to have, being contented on what you hold at hand is quite hard. It's just alright to dream and hope to have things right at the palm of your hand, your a person and a dreamer. But sometimes, it gets quite frustrating to think that you have to this and that to get that plus a lot of hardships along the way. Very hard. And it makes you feel sad. Seeing the things you already have and finding the value in them, might be quite hard at first, but keep staring, makes you feel contented. You might just say to yourself that after all the search I have done it was just near me all the time, I just needed a second look.

Being contented on what you have makes you feel at peace. I appreciate what we have right now. Thank you for that. :)

That Tear-jerking Song

Here's a song that has been making my eyes water every time I hear it. The first time was when it was played in one of the scenes of the recent movie 'Bakit Hindi Ka Crush Ng Crush Mo.' The song is about someone who is patiently waiting for that someone he loves even if they are miles apart. This love he offers knows no time nor distance.

Magkabilang Mundo
Jireh Lim

Magkalayong agwat
Gagawin ang lahat
Mapasa'yo lang ang
Pag-ibig na alay sa'yo

Ang awit na to ay awit ko sa'yo
Sana ay madama
Magkabila man ang ating mundo

Kahit nasan ka man
Hindi ka papalitan
Nag iisa ka lang 
Kahit na langit ka at lupa ako

Ang bituin ay aking dadamhin
Pag naiisip ka sabay kayong
Nagniningning

Dito ay umaga at dyan ay gabi
Ang oras natin ay magkasalungat
Ang aking hapunan ay
Iyong umagahan

Ngunit kahit na anong mangyari
Balang araw ay makakapiling ka

Hihintayin kita 
Kahit nasan kapa
Di ako mawawala
Kahit na may dumating pa

Andito lang ako iibig
Saiyo hangga't nandyan ka pa
Hangga't wala ka pang iba

Here's the official music video of Magkabilang Mundo:

The more I ignore you, the more I am pulled back towards you

And now I'm doing the same stuff all over again...
Viewing you from afar, reminiscing the moments we made together... just plainly missing us.
I just hate myself for feeling this much for you, but I think I'm just nothing to you now.
You ended what we had. I had no choice but to accept. You left me.

It's really unfair for myself doing all these things, but I can't keep myself from doing them.
I just wanna stop, freeze in time or just even disappear.
I don't want to feel this same feeling all over again.
Is it really possible for someone to stop loving the same person all over again?

For That Person I Made That Place With

At first I wanted to compose a song, but as of the moment, the skills needed are still nowhere to be found :P That's why I decided to make a poem instead. The construction and the technicalities bla bla bla may not be of high-caliber at the moment, but please do read on if you wish... :)

Hey 'Person I Made THAT PLACE With,' this is for you...

THAT PLACE

Dark, cold and gloomy

That's how my world should have been

But then you entered it

And change started bit by bit

You gave smiles full of meaning

I wanted to know what you're feeling

Still unsure, I touched your hand

Into the unknown I looked forward

To your universe you brought me

We both made memories that were happy

There were memories that were sad

We're together so it's not at all bad

From that place we made, I stepped aback

Uncertainty and fear took attack

It made you sad, it made you weary

I was so stupid, I'm really sorry

From that place we made, you stepped aback

Uncertainty and fear took attack

Back into that place, my feet took me

We didn't meet there, sadness caught me

In that place, I looked for you

At the border, there I found you

Weary and sad written all over you

And now I say these words to you

I love you, I want you to know

I love you, that's all I know

I love you, I don't want you to go

I love you, please don't go

Here we are standing at sides opposed

Of the world we both have composed

This hand reaching out to you

Will you touch it or let it go?

Cause I believe that in God's time we will meet again in THAT PLACE we created... :)