Well yeah, everyone needs a breather once in a while. I wanted it to come sooner but then again it can't be, especially if you're inside my shoes. Hahaha.. If you don't want to be like me, then don't take a course like mine in college, well, actually you can if you really want to, but please don't go into a school where I'm in, the teachers will eat you alive, and definitely that's no joke. You don't want to end up walking like a zombee just to receive your diploma.
Yes, the semester has ended, and I'm halfway near to the end of this path I've gone into. Now that I'm in it, I actually realized that, 'hey, what got into my mind that I chose this course,' do you think this one's normal?' Haha.. I feel so stupid doing a thing I don't want to. If I have seen this future way back then I wouldn't even dare talking about this course. It's too much for the scholarship thing. Well, it's my future. And I don't want to waste my life studying to become someone I haven't been dreaming off.. Yes, before, I really thought it would be an enjoyable thing to be a chemical engineer... But as I bring myself to "THE TRAINING" I was like, 'OMG, what I have gotten into?' I really hate CPI, you see, you have to memorize all sorts of things concerning different industries.. From the raw materials, to the processes they undergo, equipments to be used and everything about the industry. Woah! I really hated the subject. Some may say that the subject is really important, it's a major subject, but I definitely don't like how the subject is being taught.
Well, actually, it's not only CPI that gave me the bolt of reality. There's THERMO your everdearest bestfriend. Yeah. It's extremely challenging. Then I remember the Department Chair during the interview for incoming students ask me, 'Why do you want to be a chemical engineer?' and I answered somewhat like 'it's challenging.' Believe me IT REALLY IS. And, hey, what came into my mind to say that, or even worse, what happened to me to make me talk to the chairman and bother submit myself to "THE TRAINING" ? Haha..
Now that I've thought of everything, do you really find me stupid? Haha.. ANSWER ME. But right now, I am really hoping that I would do the right next step. What should I do next? Continue undergoing "THE TRAINING" or get myself doing something other than "THE TRAINING." Next semester, if circumstances allow me, I would give "THE TRAINING" another chance. I will have to study THERMO next week, since there are three THERMOs for you inside the TRAINING, that's too many bestfriends for you, haha! I will also give time to studying. Yeah, during the recently concluded semester, my mind was in a I-don't-want-to-study state, which I accepted whole-heartedly. Haha!
I don't really know, what will happen next.. Que sera sera, should we call it?
